GOD'S ANSWER TO ME
         
by Terry Brim
This is a brief record of an experience with God that I had early
Wednesday morning, August 18, 1999.

  It was Tuesday night and I was concerned about the finances for
the ministry and some other things that left me frustrated. In that
frustration, I cried out to God, "Do any of your promises or laws
work?" I went to bed that night thinking, I am going to figure out a
way to generate the finances to finish the new administration building
that we have started and I might as well seek to find a wife without God's
help, because I have somehow put myself in a position where I have
missed the blessings of God. (Not praying enough, or maybe I haven't
been going to church enough - either it's something about  me or His
promises don't work for all.)
  While in bed asleep, I was suddenly awakened and told to get a sheet
of paper and a pen; I am going to tell you something. I knew it was
God. I could sense His presence in the small trailer, otherwise I don't
think I would have gotten up, for it was three o'clock in the morning.
The following is what I wrote from the inspiration of God.
  God does not bless or give to us according to what we deserve or
what we may think is good, but by spiritual laws that He set into
existence. Many of these laws we became partakers in by just being
born again. (No effort on our part, it was paid for at Calvary.) There are
other spiritual laws that it doesn't matter if a person is a born again
Christian or not, they will work. One that came to my mind was, "Give,
and it shall be given unto you..." (Luke 6:38) Another was Mark 11:23,
"That whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou removed, and be
thou cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe
that those things which he saith shall come to pass; he shall have
whatsoever he saith."
  These laws are powerful, so powerful and active that they will keep a
born again Christian from receiving anthing that God wants us to have.
They will work in the positive as well as in the negative. For instance,
go back to Mark 11:23; if we say the wrong or negative thing and
believe it in our hearts, it will come to pass.
   God also showed me Peter and reminded me of how He had denied
Jesus three times prior to His death. (Matthew 26:34, 69-75) When
Jesus met with Peter after His resurrection, He asked Peter three times,
"Peter, do you love Me?" (John 21:15-17) What Jesus was doing here
was not only launching Peter's ministry, but He was stopping the effects
of the words Peter had spoken when he denied Him; that was not the
main issue with Jesus. He was breaking the power over the words that
were spoken! (Matthew 10:32-33)
  God also reminded me of Jesus' trial; "Did you notice that Jesus
never said a word in His defense?" Yes, I noticed that. "Want to know
why?" Yes, I do! "If He had said one word in His defense, it would have
started a spiritual law into action and stopped the plan of salvation!"
  He brought me into remembrance of the verse that states that a
double minded man will receive nothing. (James 1:6-8) It is because he
will say one thing, which puts a law  into action and then turn around
and say the complete opposite, which cause the laws he spoke to cancel
each other out! He showed me that in church people will say the
right things. In prayer they will say the right things. But out in the
battles of life, they will say the wrong things - sometimes just outside
the church door.

  I asked God if these laws are a constant and if they will work for
even the non-believer as well as for the weakest Christian, why do we
need to read the Bible, go to church, or listen to tapes? He answered me
by showing me one of His natural laws. He asked me, "What happens
when an acid and a base react?" I answered and said, "you get a salt and
a water." (I had taken some chemistry in school.) He said, "It works
every time because it is my law." Then He showed me that if the acid
and the base are strong, they will produce these products, (salt and
water), quickly and vigorously. "Let my law represent the acid , a strong
acid, and let your faith represent the base. If you have a weak base (or
faith), the law will still work, but it will be slow. you need to increase
the strength of your base if you want a strong reaction. The same goes
for your faith, and you increase your faith by hearing the Word of God."
  When you are first born again, you do not receive the full measure of
faith because you would be like a child with a loaded gun.
  God is fair and just. He cannot stop the effects of the laws just
because of our situation. God told me that He created the universe with
the same laws, and He created man in His likeness and expected man to
use these laws just like Him. "By this law I created the universe, I did
not withhold this law from man. (Mark 11:23-24) Satan knew the power
of this law. It is the weapon he used to try to defeat Me. (Isaiah 14)
BUT...against God it cannot..."
  So I said, "God, what do I need to do?" He told me to open my spiritual
eyes. He said, "You need to know that you are in covenant with me;
everything that is Mine is yours, and everyting that is yours is Mine." I
do this now by taking communion first thing in the  mornings.
   He also has me read Matthew chapter 27, concerning the crucifixion
of Jesus, so that I will know the price that was paid so that I may
belong and work with God. It also establishes the fact that He cares for
me and my girls, and no matter what the devil may do or situations that
arise, I know I can conquer it; for I am in convenant with God.
  Another way is to just look at what God has already created: trees,
water, wildlife, stars, the sun, the moon, and most importantly, you and
I. I know that God can and will provide and see to it that His laws do
not fail.
   In closing, this is what God told me, "Don't be discouraged. I have
not abandoned you, no matter what you have done." Remember, He
does not bless us by what we deserve, but by what we put into practice.

Ref. Matthew 8:13, 9:29

(Note: The italicized portions are additional things that Terry was
shown that he shared with his mother, Billye Brim, but they were not put
into the original letter.)